As Pride month is coming to an end I wanted to write about what pride month means to me as a mom to a gay son. I am happy that the country is coming around and there are so many more people who understand. My hope is that someday for my sons sake all this will not matter and know one will ever question my son for wanting to marry a man. I think it is crazy that people question people’s choice to marry the same sex when know one ever question why I wanted to marry my husband!!! I have never ever once treated someone different because they are different then me. My husband and I are raising are children on that same way. My hope is that one day there will be no more hate in the world. I know that that is a lot to hope for in a world filled with so much hate but I think with some education and more people standing up for others maybe my amazing children can change the world. I am hopeful that every year we will get closer. So from one proud mom to a world of hate come around it takes way more energy to hate than to LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!
The 2 oldest Monsters are from a young stupid relationship. (Which I would not trade for anything in the world because that stupid relationship gave me my 2 amazing monsters just to be clear) I have been working and fighting to have a good co-parenting relationship with their dad. Over the last 15yrs I have let a lot go and have been dealing with way more then I should have (I am not going to go in to detail because I don’t want my kids to get hurt if they ever read this) but I don’t ever want my Monsters to say you didn’t try. This past weekend I asked him to step up and take them more and spend more time with his kids he said I know. I asked him to take them all of next weekend his wife said Saturday is the only day we get to spend with each other. My question is how do I get him to spend more time with his kids? How do I do what is best for my little monsters? what is best for my little monsters in this situation? Why don’t they write a hand book on Co-Parenting with an ex that could give two shits?
I will start this by saying I understand 100% why they canceled school for 3 weeks and as a mom to a child that is Immune Compromised I am grateful. I have a question what am I going to do with these Little Monsters who thrive in structure? I can keep there day structured like school but can I really? I say can I really because I am their mom not there teacher. The authority that comes with being the teacher I don’t have. I know that because trying to get these Little Monster to do the virtual work our district set up is like chasing an over tired toddler that lost their “blankie.” I will tell you I have way more appreciation for my Little Monsters teachers I also think they need to pay them as much as an NFL QB gets payed if not more!!!!!
This First week has been crazy!!!! The kids don’t know what to do with themselves. I know that when the iPads and xbox’s become boring we have a problem. I have been trying to keep them busy with school work, outside play, and other activities. I have cleaned, organized, baked, cooked, and meal prepped everything that I can. I am going crazy!!!!!!!
Week 2 we are finally getting used to this. The little Monster are adapting to the new school routine. I gave my first spelling test this week lol. I do have some concerns about how this is going to effect my little monsters down the road. I am worried about them falling behind even with the online work. I am also worried about social skills. I know that we have to do this social distancing to maintain our health I just feel so trapped! I am going stair crazy. I know that there are people way worse off than me. With all that said we accomplished a lot this week 2 lego projects countless art pages, way to many heated games of Monopoly and Mancala, tons of family time. I have learned a lot this past week I have way more patients. Our family has become closer as a whole social distancing is slowly helping our family get to know each other more. My little Monsters are becoming better Monster so what more could you ask for lol!!!! I have added some pictures from the first 2 weeks
First off I really think that writing these recaps are helping me stay accountable. This month has been another challenging month for our family we are having a lot of changes. I have been killing the resolution game. I did great this month another 29 days of dressing even know there were days I just wanted to stay in my PJS. I am starting to feel much better about myself. My little Monsters are loving the new me. My husband and I are doing a lot better too. I am loving the new me.
I have lost 43lbs in the past 2 months I am eating very healthy. Our whole family has had a change with eating. I cut out processed food at first the little Monsters were very grumpy and hated the change. Now the little Monsters don’t mind I even see them grabbing or asking for more healthy options. The Little Monsters still crave junk food some days I give in but as a family were are learning healthy food items can taste like junk food or sometimes better. I found a recipe for 3 ingredients peanut butter cookies that has become or new favorite treat. https://barefeetinthekitchen.com/old-fashioned-peanut-butter-cookie-recipe/
Book reading this month has been a little harder I only finished 1 book. This book The Wives was amazing a little slow to start but the end made the whole book. https://www.target.com/p/the-wives-by-tarryn-fisher-paperback/-/A-77056970 I tried to read the second book to The Tattooist of Auschwitz with no luck I really tried. I could not get into it.
This past week my little Monsters had school vacation. I hate these times of year because my Monster expect these big plans to happen. School vacation with 2 teenage Monsters and a 7yr old is not fun. I tried to plan things we could all do I get the “I don’t want to do that” why do we always do what she wants or he wants” I want to stay home and play my xbox” I tried to plan fun days. We had a little trouble in the beginning of the week. We had the flu make its way to our house. We also had a problem with the weather we live in a cold February climate. I planned a movie day which in itself is ridiculously expensive. But that is a topic for another post! These little Monster complained about which movie to see in the end my husband and 2 boys went to the movies my daughter and I went to the mall. What I learned for the next vacation is don’t plan anything. It is a good thing I love these little Monsters!!!!
The first month has been a little hard. I stuck with it. I think that I am doing ok I believe I can be doing better!!!!! I did get dressed every day of Jan. The putting on makeup and doing hair is not going well I had a little trouble with the makeup. My skin has been giving me a lot of trouble I think as I am getting older my skin hates me lol.(I know that is not an excuse) I plan to do better in Feb I order all new makeup and skin care. Heres to hoping my skin will learn I am the boss lol. I am doing good with my weight loss journey so far. I know for myself that the first month is the easiest for me. The sticking with it is what kills me but what I think is different this time I know that I have to do this to show my little monsters a heathy lifestyle. I have always had trouble with emotional eating but this time I am learning it is ok to ask for help and say NO to things. My little monsters have been great at helping me out they are asking how I am doing and cheering me on. I know that is what is keeping me going.
With reading I am killing it. I read 4 books granted 3 were audio books because I am a very busy mom to 3 monsters. ( It still counts right) I listened to Rachael Hollis Girl, wash your face and Girl, Stop Apologizing. They were Amazing and very helpful I would recommend them to any and every women not to mention she is hilarious. I also listened to Stassi Schroeder’s Next Level Basic this book I don’t think I have ever laughed so hard with a book before. (Stassi if you ever read this by some crazy chance please keep writing I will buy everything you write) Please run to Target or wherever you buy your books from and get it. I promise you will thank me. The 1 book I did actually read was The Tattooist of Auschwitz by Heather Morris very good read I finished it in 4 days. I am currently reading the second one to this I will update you in next months recap. I have linked all the books if you would like to read.
https://msrachelhollis.com. https://www.target.com/p/girl-stop-apologizing-by-rachel-hollis-hardcover/-/A-54100654. https://www.target.com/p/girl-wash-your-face-by-rachel-hollis-hardcover/-/A-52971788
My little monsters are living a fantasy world!!!!!!!! My little monsters have no idea!!! They think everything should be handed to them. I asked my oldest teenage monster to make his little brothers bed.(his brother is 7 and has special needs) He the proceeded to tell me that I don’t sleep in it why do I have to make it. I said “well I don’t dirty all the laundry and dishes but I still have to wash them” to which replayed “that is your job right” I could have spit nails this little monster has no idea what it is like and believe me we are trying to teach him how to be an adult. When he is told to do chores he always tells my husband and I we are awful parents because none of his friend have chores. Is this a thing? I have always had chores. My little monsters don’t have as many chores as I had at there age. The 14yr old monster has to clean 2 toilets and sweep a kitchen floor and keep room clean. When I was his age was cleaning the whole house. This little monster has no idea. So here is my question why do kids theses days think they don’t have to do chores or contribute in anyway to the house? Why do they think because there mom stays home I should be doing everything? We are creating lazy in-tilted monsters. I am worried about his age group as a whole!!!!
I started this year off like almost everyone I want to loose weight be a better person love more read more all of theses things. This year I made a hard resolution for myself believe me I know how easy this is going to sound to most people but when you are a stay at home mom this is hard to do. I made the resolution to get dressed do my makeup and hair everyday no matter what. Today I am 13 days 2 colds sick kids home flu going around and I have been doing it. Every day since Jan 1 2020 I dressed and I have done simply makeup and hair. I get that this seams easy and some are thinking OMG she is a lazy slob. when you are a stay at home mom and a 1 car family you can get into ruts last year most days I put my youngest monster on the bus in my pjs most days I had no reason to get dressed where was I going what was I doing. When I think back to last year this my be the reason why I was unhappy with myself. SO this year I made a promise to myself that I would take better care of myself. I wanted to do this for myself. My little monsters and husband have told me that they noticed a difference they said I seem happier!!!
I know this sound so cliché. This year I am choosing to do and be better!!!!!! I want to make small achievable goals because I have learned that when you make large unachievable goals you set yourself up to FAIL. This also sets you up to hate yourself!! I like everyone else want better. I want to be a better wife, mother to those amazing monsters, sister, and just to be a better ME because without choosing me I can’t be better at theses other things.
HERES TO A GREAT YEAR!!!!!!!!!
Our new family tradition was an amazing idea. The little monsters loved every second of it. They loved swimming on Christmas morning. My husband and I loved that we could stop and enjoy “our family time.” I loved that we had no expectations. I loved that I could enjoy watching my little monsters open there gifts and enjoy without having to go anywhere. We enjoyed that there was no rushing around anywhere. The little monsters loved that there didn’t have to get all dressed up. I loved that I didn’t have to play fake nice. I loved that I didn’t have to rush around anywhere. I know that the holiday season is about being with family but when did it become a game of playing fake nice and who’s kids are better or who spent the most money? I enjoy my family most of the time but I just wanted to enjoy my holiday with “my family” is that wrong? Why and when did family time become like having a job? My husband and I agreed that this will be something we do as a new tradition.