The first month has been a little hard. I stuck with it. I think that I am doing ok I believe I can be doing better!!!!! I did get dressed every day of Jan. The putting on makeup and doing hair is not going well I had a little trouble with the makeup. My skin has been giving me a lot of trouble I think as I am getting older my skin hates me lol.(I know that is not an excuse) I plan to do better in Feb I order all new makeup and skin care. Heres to hoping my skin will learn I am the boss lol. I am doing good with my weight loss journey so far. I know for myself that the first month is the easiest for me. The sticking with it is what kills me but what I think is different this time I know that I have to do this to show my little monsters a heathy lifestyle. I have always had trouble with emotional eating but this time I am learning it is ok to ask for help and say NO to things. My little monsters have been great at helping me out they are asking how I am doing and cheering me on. I know that is what is keeping me going.
With reading I am killing it. I read 4 books granted 3 were audio books because I am a very busy mom to 3 monsters. ( It still counts right) I listened to Rachael Hollis Girl, wash your face and Girl, Stop Apologizing. They were Amazing and very helpful I would recommend them to any and every women not to mention she is hilarious. I also listened to Stassi Schroeder’s Next Level Basic this book I don’t think I have ever laughed so hard with a book before. (Stassi if you ever read this by some crazy chance please keep writing I will buy everything you write) Please run to Target or wherever you buy your books from and get it. I promise you will thank me. The 1 book I did actually read was The Tattooist of Auschwitz by Heather Morris very good read I finished it in 4 days. I am currently reading the second one to this I will update you in next months recap. I have linked all the books if you would like to read.
My middle Monster has been working very hard to get into a private high school. Here is a little back story. She came to us and said “I want to do something” we said “ok” She then told us ” I want to got to a private high school” then presented us with all the information. She did all the research she found the school she wanted to go to. She looked up the application process, scholarship, finical aide, and everything else she needed. She then explained why she want to go to the school. She had a little presentation for us. She explained that she was not learning in her current School and didn’t think it would be any better at the local high school. She told us that she wanted to achieve something great and get in to a good collage she didn’t think the local high school could help her get there. (we don’t not have a problem with public school we have 2 other monsters in public school this is just how she felt) We then started the process of applying she wrote the essay we filled out at the paperwork explored the school and the curriculum, talked to teacher, students, and parents. My husband and I feel in love with the school. We finished everything and waited for what seemed like forever. We received the email SHE DID IT. She got ACCEPTED. She is going places she is a very good example of determination paying off!!!!!!!!!!
My little monsters are living a fantasy world!!!!!!!! My little monsters have no idea!!! They think everything should be handed to them. I asked my oldest teenage monster to make his little brothers bed.(his brother is 7 and has special needs) He the proceeded to tell me that I don’t sleep in it why do I have to make it. I said “well I don’t dirty all the laundry and dishes but I still have to wash them” to which replayed “that is your job right” I could have spit nails this little monster has no idea what it is like and believe me we are trying to teach him how to be an adult. When he is told to do chores he always tells my husband and I we are awful parents because none of his friend have chores. Is this a thing? I have always had chores. My little monsters don’t have as many chores as I had at there age. The 14yr old monster has to clean 2 toilets and sweep a kitchen floor and keep room clean. When I was his age was cleaning the whole house. This little monster has no idea. So here is my question why do kids theses days think they don’t have to do chores or contribute in anyway to the house? Why do they think because there mom stays home I should be doing everything? We are creating lazy in-tilted monsters. I am worried about his age group as a whole!!!!
I started this year off like almost everyone I want to loose weight be a better person love more read more all of theses things. This year I made a hard resolution for myself believe me I know how easy this is going to sound to most people but when you are a stay at home mom this is hard to do. I made the resolution to get dressed do my makeup and hair everyday no matter what. Today I am 13 days 2 colds sick kids home flu going around and I have been doing it. Every day since Jan 1 2020 I dressed and I have done simply makeup and hair. I get that this seams easy and some are thinking OMG she is a lazy slob. when you are a stay at home mom and a 1 car family you can get into ruts last year most days I put my youngest monster on the bus in my pjs most days I had no reason to get dressed where was I going what was I doing. When I think back to last year this my be the reason why I was unhappy with myself. SO this year I made a promise to myself that I would take better care of myself. I wanted to do this for myself. My little monsters and husband have told me that they noticed a difference they said I seem happier!!!
I know this sound so cliché. This year I am choosing to do and be better!!!!!! I want to make small achievable goals because I have learned that when you make large unachievable goals you set yourself up to FAIL. This also sets you up to hate yourself!! I like everyone else want better. I want to be a better wife, mother to those amazing monsters, sister, and just to be a better ME because without choosing me I can’t be better at theses other things.
Our new family tradition was an amazing idea. The little monsters loved every second of it. They loved swimming on Christmas morning. My husband and I loved that we could stop and enjoy “our family time.” I loved that we had no expectations. I loved that I could enjoy watching my little monsters open there gifts and enjoy without having to go anywhere. We enjoyed that there was no rushing around anywhere. The little monsters loved that there didn’t have to get all dressed up. I loved that I didn’t have to play fake nice. I loved that I didn’t have to rush around anywhere. I know that the holiday season is about being with family but when did it become a game of playing fake nice and who’s kids are better or who spent the most money? I enjoy my family most of the time but I just wanted to enjoy my holiday with “my family” is that wrong? Why and when did family time become like having a job? My husband and I agreed that this will be something we do as a new tradition.
This year our family made a choice to have our holiday in a hotel. My husband and I talked about this for a long time before we decided. My husband works very hard all year and does not spend very much time with us. Our 2 oldest monster are from my previous relationship that we have to split our holidays with their dad. This year was our year so that made the choice that much easier. We wanted to have a family holiday uninterrupted. Don’t get me wrong we love our family but we also wanted to be a little selfish and spend time with just us and our little monsters. When we talked to the little monsters they love the idea. The little monster were very excited to plan everything from where we were going to stay to what we were going to do. Watching them get so excited about getting to have time with us and daddy not working is worth every penny and all the crap family has given us. To be continued!!!!!!!!!!